RAT'S LAST WORDS TO THE COMMUNITY by Robert "RaT" Jefferson
I'm not really sure how to start this out. To some of you this may
be a surprise, but to those of you who have paid attention to recent
events - this is old news. A few weeks ago I decided to leave
soldierx.com and let the owner, Blake Self, and his friends continue
the site. I've used it long enough, and it's time for me to move on.
The purpose of this document is to sum up all of my feelings and put
them onto paper. It's not an easy task, and I'm sure I won't get
everything exactly how it is. I just don't want to leave without at
least giving some sort of a formal goodbye.
Many of you know the early history of soldierx.com, so I'm only going
to elaborate on why I was destined to leave. I took over soldierx.com
in 1999 after I was released from prison. I took over the site to use
it to inform people who knew me and knew of my arrest. Blake wasn't
using the domain anymore, so he allowed me to use it for my purposes.
Shortly after I began using it, traffic started to pick up, and many
inquired about the former group. I decided to restart the group - that
was the birth of the soldierx.com which you have come to know.
My purposes were never for soldierx.com to get as popular as it became.
I'm more of an introvert, and I never wanted to get a name, or be well
known. As many of you noticed, I have never been very good at running
soldierx.com. I never got the updates done in time, and I really didn't
put much effort into the site. But it was never about the site - it was
about my message. I preached freedom of information and an open
learning community. These are the things which I have always desired
most - and this dream will never die.
The main thing that helped me to realize that it was time for me to go
was all of the criticism. I realized that I had put soldierx.com into
a community that it was never meant to be a part of. My past actions
which resulted in my arrest were wrong. The site I had erected were
promoting those actions, and encouraging others to do the same.
This was not what I was about, and not what soldierx.com was about.
There needed to be a change.
I never really liked the "hacker" community. I never fit into it - I
was always too much of a geek. I've always fit in with the programmers
and open-source operating system communities. That's where I belong,
and that's where I'm going back to. All I see in the "hacker" community
is negative. Everybody in the community is making fun of everybody
else - nobody is learning anything. I even heard that a rather pathetic
girl I unfortunately met, comp82, was saying that I had not read a
certain book. What has a community come to when somebody will make
up lies as stupid as that to promote self image by damaging the
reputation of others.
I'm not sure what will become of soldierx.com, but I know that it will
be nothing to do with this community. As the people keep pushing
themselves down the downward spiral, I only hope that these words will
wake some people up to what they are doing - so that maybe some of them
can change. Maybe somebody will read this and realize that they should
go read more and insult less. If this document helps one person - then
I will be content with writing it.
Maybe the "hacker" community used to be a united community with no bias
at all - but I think that it was never perfect. If it ever existed as
a utopia, that was only because it was small in number and diversity.
Now that there is so much diversity online, a peaceful community trying
to learn the things that many of them are trying to learn will never
exist. I've seen more discrimination in this community than I've ever
seen anywhere else.
I remember the Mentor's last words. Many people are inspired by the
unity expressed in his words. Maybe the community should realize that
they're no longer all alike, that nobody needs to stop them because
they're stopping themselves. Accomplishment doesn't seem to exist in
their community. Just remember that...
This is the end of my rant, and the end of my last words. For all of
you that read it that aren't in the community I'm talking about, I'm
not talking about real hackers, I'm talking about the communities that
have sprouted up at every stupid site similar to what soldierx.com had
become. Fare well, and goodnight.